"Cheer up. Remember what the Monty Python boys say."
"Always look on the bright side of life?"
"No, 'Nobody expects the Spanish Inquisition.'"

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Bloodwork on Saturday.

DH gets to give blood to the vampires on Saturday. It will be 4 weeks+ from the start of then Clomid and it should show whether or not the protocol is working.

I am a nervous wreck. If it shows no change then I don't know where we should go from here. I guess we will freeze a sample or maybe a few samples and then go from there.

I want to say, I would never wish this on anyone in my entire life. It is just rollercoaster after rollercoaster. And as much as some people (those who have never gone through this) try to understand, they don't. And as much faith as I am putting in Go.d and the doctors, I cannot let my hopes soar only to be crushed again.

I know:
  • If it is meant to be it will be
  • It will happen in Go.d's time
  • Have faith and trust
  • Be a better Christian
  • Live my life right
  • Change my thought pattern
  • Pray without stopping
  • Think of others first
  • Stop being selfish
  • Just relax
Have I missed any of the axioms that get throw out there without regard to the hurt they cause? Just wanted to let the blog-o-sphere know, I know all this stuff and it is not making it any better.

I will have my nervousness and I will go on from there. When we get the results, then I guess we will have aour answers.

I just needed to get it out of my system.


Jen said...

Waiting for results is so nerve wrecking. Hang in there Tam. And I hate all of those lines you listed. Whether we like it or not they seem to imply that you are doing something wrong when that is simply not true.

jenn said...

I hope it's nothing but good news- nI'm sorry about the nerve wracking wait. It really does suck not knowing. I really hate hearing "if it's meant to be it will be" & "Just relax"

Monica Fayth said...

I'm really,really, really hoping you get good news.

And I hate those lines too. Don't forget the "trying, that's your problem. stop trying so hard and it will happen"