"Cheer up. Remember what the Monty Python boys say."
"Always look on the bright side of life?"
"No, 'Nobody expects the Spanish Inquisition.'"


Thursday, September 11, 2008

Cycle 42... Sigh.

Six more cycles and I am in the 4 year club. Well, 4 years of TTC cycles and in 7 months it will be 6 years of TTC.

I am starting to feel the weight of it all and I am not sure how much longer I can go on pursuing treatments. Clomid is only effective for so long before cancer starts to become an issue.

I think I need to just resign myself to the fact that we will only have a miracle baby and I will probably be 45 when it happens, when my eggs are being thrown out of my ovaries so I can start menopause. I would welcome a child at any age but I am not really looking forward to a baby when I am celebrating my 20th wedding anniversary.

Sorry, just feeling a little whiny today.

4 comments:

Lori said...

Oh, Tammy. I'm sorry you're feeling so wiped out by all this.

Sending you a hug. And permission to whine away.

Jen said...

It sucks Tam. (((Hugs)))

nancy said...

~hugs~ Tammy. I'm so sorry.

I do have a question though. in 4 month is will be 4 years of ttc cycles and in 7 months it will be 7 years of ttc? I don't understand.

jenn said...

Feel free to whine anytime. This just sucks & I'm sorry. Sending you some great big hugs & lots of love.